HeartBreak

God why must MY crush have a girlfriend?? and plus stupid Janaya is showing her true feelings as if it is easy as drinking a sip of water for crying out loud! me and Hudson make fun of her for it but I just keep on wondering what would he do if he found out MY true feelings huh? he just turned 12 years old on monday and yes it IS the day after christmas blah blah blah.... I am just so sick and tired of my true feelings about him boiling up inside of me and I dont know why I havnt exploded yet! I can tell he likes me back I KNOW IT! but he is shy (like me) and he is scared whats going to happen if he tells me the truth......... I am afraid because I think it will ruin our friendship.... tomorrows New Years Eve and he's coming home from his dads at 4:30 so thats when we will hang out but since its vacation and all we've been hanging out at like 9:30 (AM!) and going inside his house (in his BASEMENT!) untill like 8:00 (PM!) so yeah AWKWARD! but on Tueday he goes back to school :(. but I have another week off because I ya know do homeschool and my dad doesnt want to get up LOL. So yeah we only have like 3 days left of going into his house at 10:00 am but I'm sure I can live without it.... Right??

what has been going on lately

well lately i found out that since I have my dads skin I get hive's when I get sick and guess what: IM SICK!! its also because I'm going through puberty (I'm 11 years old now btw it was on November 20th!) So yeah I've been coughing, using a LOT of tissues, and being itchy ALL DAY LONG! but since I started taking some medicine that I take in the morining instead of taking benadryl every 6 hours the itichness has been going away ALL DAY LONG!! so I was happy about that but it makes you REALLY drowsy so I somtimes fall asleep while watching TV with DJ so yeah it kind of SUCKS but the medicine DOES work so I shouldnt be complaining........ So yeah thats all that has been happening lately..... OH yeah i almost forgot somthing one of Hudsons friends that live in this neighborhood and his school has started hanging out with us her name is Janaya. and guess what: SHE LOVES HIM!!! she wont admit it but Hudson says she asked him to the dance this Saturday night. Holy crapos SHE LOVES HIM!!! omigod i think I am going to die and go to heaven right now...... SHE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS him!!!!!!! great just great it's bad enough he doesnt know I LOVE him but now she walks right in our lives and asks him out!!???? that is SUCH a foul in the girl code........ and then she goes and calls ME a girly girl because i wear flip flops in the summer??? its just because I dont like to sweat!!!!! GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD!!!! so yeah great just GREAT!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuNIsY6JdUw&ob=av2n
thats the story of my life turned into a song.....
:'(
well thats all i wanted to say bye!!!