HeartBreak

God why must MY crush have a girlfriend?? and plus stupid Janaya is showing her true feelings as if it is easy as drinking a sip of water for crying out loud! me and Hudson make fun of her for it but I just keep on wondering what would he do if he found out MY true feelings huh? he just turned 12 years old on monday and yes it IS the day after christmas blah blah blah.... I am just so sick and tired of my true feelings about him boiling up inside of me and I dont know why I havnt exploded yet! I can tell he likes me back I KNOW IT! but he is shy (like me) and he is scared whats going to happen if he tells me the truth......... I am afraid because I think it will ruin our friendship.... tomorrows New Years Eve and he's coming home from his dads at 4:30 so thats when we will hang out but since its vacation and all we've been hanging out at like 9:30 (AM!) and going inside his house (in his BASEMENT!) untill like 8:00 (PM!) so yeah AWKWARD! but on Tueday he goes back to school :(. but I have another week off because I ya know do homeschool and my dad doesnt want to get up LOL. So yeah we only have like 3 days left of going into his house at 10:00 am but I'm sure I can live without it.... Right??

what has been going on lately

well lately i found out that since I have my dads skin I get hive's when I get sick and guess what: IM SICK!! its also because I'm going through puberty (I'm 11 years old now btw it was on November 20th!) So yeah I've been coughing, using a LOT of tissues, and being itchy ALL DAY LONG! but since I started taking some medicine that I take in the morining instead of taking benadryl every 6 hours the itichness has been going away ALL DAY LONG!! so I was happy about that but it makes you REALLY drowsy so I somtimes fall asleep while watching TV with DJ so yeah it kind of SUCKS but the medicine DOES work so I shouldnt be complaining........ So yeah thats all that has been happening lately..... OH yeah i almost forgot somthing one of Hudsons friends that live in this neighborhood and his school has started hanging out with us her name is Janaya. and guess what: SHE LOVES HIM!!! she wont admit it but Hudson says she asked him to the dance this Saturday night. Holy crapos SHE LOVES HIM!!! omigod i think I am going to die and go to heaven right now...... SHE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS him!!!!!!! great just great it's bad enough he doesnt know I LOVE him but now she walks right in our lives and asks him out!!???? that is SUCH a foul in the girl code........ and then she goes and calls ME a girly girl because i wear flip flops in the summer??? its just because I dont like to sweat!!!!! GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD!!!! so yeah great just GREAT!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuNIsY6JdUw&ob=av2n
thats the story of my life turned into a song.....
:'(
well thats all i wanted to say bye!!!

my lazy saturday

well today i woke up at about 12:30 pm and i started watching TV and guess what??? i still am! well....... it's not MY fault! my friends are ALL gone! Hudson is gone to his dads, Tyvannah is at his moms and Conner is at a friends birthday party. but tomorrow Tyvannah is going to church with me and my family. its going to turn into a regular thing! i am SO excited! well thats what happened today bye!!

my (HORRIBLE) day

well first off i woke up and my parents were both gone to work. so i stayed inside and watched TV in my PJs. when my dad got home he made me clean the car. then i took a shower then i had to sweep up the driveway. then i hung out with Andrew for a little bit. it was 6 pm by then so i went in and my parents went out to dinner and i got McDonalds. the day actually didnt turn out to be THAT bad. except it was without Hudson so thats what made it a horrible day. oh and since i didnt do a blog yesterday here is the details of it. first i did school (only 2 subjects YAY!) then i called Andrew over and me and him made a real life version of paper toss. you know how when you did a bad busniess idea or somthing and you roll it up in a ball and throw it in the trashcan? well thats what me and andrew made but even better! and it had different levels to it Easy, Medium, Hard and expert. i got it to medium and Andrew made it to hard. then after that we dicided to go to Ninas ( a little store thats just a couple blocks away from my neighborhood) i bought a bag of chips and Sunkist. thats when Hudson noticed us :DDDDDDD we hung out with him untill his mom called him to come and help her with somthing. then after he left it was just me,andrew, Tyvannah, and Conner. then Andrew had to leave to some resturaunt called Frog and Turtle. then at about 7 pm i went out to Dinner with my parents. and as i was leaving i saw Tyvannah and Conner hanging out with Hudson..... :( but going to dinner was fun. we went to on the border then we went to a comic book place and my mom bought me one. it was SuperGirl. but when we got home. Conner,Tyvannah and Hudson had all gone in. and today hudson is gone to his dads ( as usual) but i guess its a good thing. his parents ARE divorced so i SHOULD show SOME sympathy right? okay so thats all that happened today AND yesterday. see you tomorow. BYE!!



xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

<3 <3 <3 <3

my day with Amy

if you dont know Amy look on my past blogs. well today with Amy when she came over she got changed into jeans then we both did our make up then (this was ALL in my bathroom) she did french twist pig tails. i looked SO cute i swear to god! okay it looked SO good on me but it took so LONG to do though! and i also hung out with hudson today :0 he looked SO cute too. :) you know the whole reason i let Amy do my hair is so i could look cute for hudson...... that is SO embarrasing to say on a blog but its the truth isnt it? i mean come on! i just wanted to impress him (i dont know if it worked though) and Amy knew that i liked him but when she asked today i said no. but only because i panicked. i think i should have told her the truth....... i think me and Hudsons relationship is the same as DJ and Amys...... that means they LOOK like they're dating but they both have girlfriend/boyfriends already thats what i learned today i mean what kind of guy like Hudson like me? as in more than a friend? i mean COME ON! it is absouloutely IMPOSSIBLE. :( im sad now. ugh! this is SO hard to go through! *sighs* well he DOES already have a girlfriend anyway. he probably likes HER more than me........ *cries a whole river* it will probably NEVER happen. well thats what happend today. well bye!

my almost perfect day :)

well today i thought was gonna be as boring as heck but it turned out to be almost perfect (it was without hudson so it wasnt perfect :D) so i got my tiger beat mag and then DJ, my dad and i all went to daddys music store,walmart,target and chillis then we all went home and i hung out with conner and tyvanah (no hudson :( ) we only hung out at my house ( DJ taught them skate boarding conner was really bad at it!) for like 20-30 minutes then me and DJ went inside so here i am now writing this being bored now :) well thats all that happened today so see yall later!!!


<33333

one week left and the bad weather lately

a week from today (sunday :D) hudson is getting back from massachusets that he went to with his dad to go fishing hes been gone since thursday and i am soooo bored i cannot WAIT till he gets back! but lately all its been is rain, rain, rain! ( i hope hudson doesnt get soaked in his tent at camp!) tomorow, thursday or friday me and my family are going to aquaboggin though!! it is going to be soooo much funnnnn!!!! well thats all so far well bye bye!!

the longest week of my life!!!!

the week started last week on a thursday and hudson was all over the place so this past wedsday i slept over at my mimi and papas ( its a traditon we do EVERY summer) and they treated me like a princess! when i first got there at like 6:30 pm i took all my stuff in from the car and said i was ready and we went to friendlys for supper and after supper mimi said that we should go to biglots (which is right across the parking lot) and we walked there and i got a bunch of stuff! i got socks,a peace sign for my door, watch,ring,sunglasses,and earrings and then on thursday me and mimi went to the mall to go shopping i got ,a dress,boots,3 pairs of earrings, 2 necklaces and 2 rings and after that we went back to their house and i got in my bathing suite and went in the pool when i got out i got changed and got packed and they took me to dinner at applebees and then i got back to my own home and saw shane and DJ downstairs and we hung out untill my dad told me to come up to bed for the night so i went to sleep and then yeasterday (A.K.A friday) DJs girlsfriend beatrace came over and we all went to morans to get somthing to eat then when we got back we watched jumangi and monty python and the holy grail then we went back to morans to get somthing to eat and drink and on the way back home Amy stopped us and she was kind of mean to me so we stayed there for a little bit and when we got back beatrace and dj played a game called ssx and i watched them play it and it was sooooo much fun! and after beatrace left i ate dinner than my doorbell rang and it was my friends wondering if i wanted to come outside so i did and i saw hudson for the first time in 8 days!!!! so yeah it was kind of a crazy week but now ive got to go take a shower see ya later!!! <333333 

Morans and lunch

well today i woke up at about 10:00 am and my dad left to a music gig and when my mom came home from dropping him off she took me and DJ to on the border and DQ for desert! YUM!! and when i got back i went to conners and waited for hudson got back but he didnt get back till like 9:30 PM so yeah kind of useless! and my friends now think that hudson is my boyfriend ( I WISH!!) but hes not so yeah im in trouble....... oh and today at like 7:30/ 8:00 PM me and tyvanah went to moraans and i got a sunkist and he got 2 sodas for himself and 1 for conner (after he bugged tyvanah for a half an hour straight!!!) so yeah thats all that happened tomorrow i dont know if im hanging out with Hudson or not.... i really DONT know :(

well thats all, BYE!!

xoxoxoxo





<33

having more fun than usual

well today im a litle more happy than usual because today hudson is getting back in 45 minutes!!!!!! :D cannot wait oh and yesterday DJ's girlfriend came over and we watched the movie "who framed roger rabbit" it was really funny and beatrace is soooo nice she calls me adorable every 5 seconds but i loved every second of it in the end and at about 7:30/ 8:00 she left because her mom called to tell her that she was in the driveway so she left and then i just watched TV and did what i wanted...oooooohhhhhhh hudsons mom just left to pick him up from the camp thingy so hes going to be home soon!!!! YAY!!! ;) well see yas!!!!

depression

okay so now i am REALLY depressed as much as i was last night when hudson told me he wanted to go home. well today hudson said that he would meet me at my house when he got home from this camp type thing that he goes to every morning and doesnt get back till like 3:30 well when he got home about a half an hour ago thyvannah wanted me to go with him to get hudson right but i wanted to finish my blog so i said that id allow him to use my phone to call hudson while i finish my blog WELL when i got back to the doorway thyvannah said that hudson was gone to codys and he would be back tomorrow so yeah im kind of depresed now and its blazing hot so now im just going to stay inside the rest of the day.... :( well i hope to see you soon bye!

PS. the temperature is now 103 degrees out!! well see you tonight or tomorrow bye!

xoxoxoxo 

<333333

heat wave and heated up love

okay this might sound a little weird coming from a 10 (almost 11 in 4 months!) year old girl but i REALLY wish that love was easier than this i mean COME ON i really like hudson and he asked me if i wanted him to stay over (not over night just untill 9:30/10:00pm) i said "yes" and he said "really? your the one who usually wants me to go home!" "no i dont" "but i kind of want to go home though" and then i said those most heart  breaking words " you can go home if you want" " im sorry......." "its okay"   and i started walking toward the door my heart broken and then he started rambling on about to meet him at his house at 4:30 and this all happend last night today it is 100 degrees out!!! well thats all see ya latah!!! <3 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

whats been happenin these past few days

well first off i want to say that i am REALLY sorry that i havnt been doing a blog in a couple days but i havnt been on it because ive busy with "friends" ;) so uhm today is DJ's birthday!!! big 15!!!! wow thats a big number....... oh and yesterday was a little awkward..... well one GOOD thing that happend is that i saw andrew (one of mah friends who is 19 :O) after 2 weeks it turns out that i havnt seen him because he has been inside all day all through those weeks!!!! and last night was the awkward part. because me and hudson walked around my house when tyvannah, conner and andrew had gone inside for the night we were just walking and he said he knew where my weak spot was on my body and it was right above my knee and he hit it not very hard but it hurt some how and my dad kind of saw it and he kind of has these rules about boys (the usual dad thing to do) and one of them is not to let boys touch me above the knee and belly button but uhm yeah i told him about my dads rules about boys and yeah he started freaking out.... which btw is very cute to watch...... so then we had to walk away from where my dad could watch and he asked about the other rules but i didnt tell him and then well we went in my front yard and just hung out but then i heard my MOM walk through the door and my dad said it was time to come in but i said i didnt want to and hudson kept on saying bye to get out of the mess and my mom said hi to him and yeah it was 9:30 and my dad used that aganst me..... so i said bye to hudson and went inside and thats all that happened YESTERDAY but today hes gone to codys untill 5:00 and its 3:20 right now so yeah about an hour and 40 minutes!!! tick tok tick tok!!! cannot wait!! and i went swimming in andrews pool today soooo boring without hudson, tyvannah or conner!!! but yeah it was kind of fun i guess..... ???? but im kind of bored right now!!!!! :( but im going to sign off right now to ride my bike see ya!!! <3333

courage comes up and BIG crush shows love a little

well today i went on this pathway trail kind of thing and and i rode it on my bike and at first when hudson asked me to go on it i didnt because it looked too scary and hard but today i went on it and didnt get scared AT ALL!!! :D today when i was about to leave angry at hudson and two 7 year olds (AKA friends tehehehehehe) and he caught me and said "i dont want you to leave because i will be to bored" and the 7 year old who pulled my shirt down yesterday said "why? becuase you love her?" and hes like "no" and started blushing ;) so yeah i think he kinda likes me but this other 7 year old conner kind of has a crush on me and im kind of scared because most of the time im thinking about hudson NOT conner but i dont want to be mean to conner so i say NOTHING about crushes AT ALL! :D but i keep on giving hints to hudson but uhm today he had a friend over named cody and he thought I had a crush on CODY but uhm yeah i dont....... but cody is kind of cute i guess...... but not the way he thought so yeah we kinda had a mix of things happend today and tomorrow it starts ALL over again :D but im kind of looking forward to it because in the end i end up having ALOT of fun ;) i <3 Hudson H+D=LOVE!  

secret crush and BIG omg moment

well where should i start.... well uhm how do i say this..... this 7 year old kid pulled my shirt down and he saw half my boobs and bra........ oh and i have this BIG crush on a guy named hudson and he is 11 and im 10 hes turning 12 this year im turning 11 this year so he is one year older than me and so far it kinda seems like he likes me but he could be just being friendly like a friend not like a guy crushing on me oh and i started this "crush" when we met again (long story) in september and since then..... well he has gotten angry at me and have seen my embarassing moments (like today.... with the 7 year old kid....) and he has stood up for me..... he is REALLY sweet..... if only he knew how much i liked him well thats all that happened today see ya later!!!! :D <3333333