HeartBreak

God why must MY crush have a girlfriend?? and plus stupid Janaya is showing her true feelings as if it is easy as drinking a sip of water for crying out loud! me and Hudson make fun of her for it but I just keep on wondering what would he do if he found out MY true feelings huh? he just turned 12 years old on monday and yes it IS the day after christmas blah blah blah.... I am just so sick and tired of my true feelings about him boiling up inside of me and I dont know why I havnt exploded yet! I can tell he likes me back I KNOW IT! but he is shy (like me) and he is scared whats going to happen if he tells me the truth......... I am afraid because I think it will ruin our friendship.... tomorrows New Years Eve and he's coming home from his dads at 4:30 so thats when we will hang out but since its vacation and all we've been hanging out at like 9:30 (AM!) and going inside his house (in his BASEMENT!) untill like 8:00 (PM!) so yeah AWKWARD! but on Tueday he goes back to school :(. but I have another week off because I ya know do homeschool and my dad doesnt want to get up LOL. So yeah we only have like 3 days left of going into his house at 10:00 am but I'm sure I can live without it.... Right??

what has been going on lately

well lately i found out that since I have my dads skin I get hive's when I get sick and guess what: IM SICK!! its also because I'm going through puberty (I'm 11 years old now btw it was on November 20th!) So yeah I've been coughing, using a LOT of tissues, and being itchy ALL DAY LONG! but since I started taking some medicine that I take in the morining instead of taking benadryl every 6 hours the itichness has been going away ALL DAY LONG!! so I was happy about that but it makes you REALLY drowsy so I somtimes fall asleep while watching TV with DJ so yeah it kind of SUCKS but the medicine DOES work so I shouldnt be complaining........ So yeah thats all that has been happening lately..... OH yeah i almost forgot somthing one of Hudsons friends that live in this neighborhood and his school has started hanging out with us her name is Janaya. and guess what: SHE LOVES HIM!!! she wont admit it but Hudson says she asked him to the dance this Saturday night. Holy crapos SHE LOVES HIM!!! omigod i think I am going to die and go to heaven right now...... SHE LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS him!!!!!!! great just great it's bad enough he doesnt know I LOVE him but now she walks right in our lives and asks him out!!???? that is SUCH a foul in the girl code........ and then she goes and calls ME a girly girl because i wear flip flops in the summer??? its just because I dont like to sweat!!!!! GET THAT IN YOUR HEAD!!!! so yeah great just GREAT!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VuNIsY6JdUw&ob=av2n
thats the story of my life turned into a song.....
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well thats all i wanted to say bye!!!

my lazy saturday

well today i woke up at about 12:30 pm and i started watching TV and guess what??? i still am! well....... it's not MY fault! my friends are ALL gone! Hudson is gone to his dads, Tyvannah is at his moms and Conner is at a friends birthday party. but tomorrow Tyvannah is going to church with me and my family. its going to turn into a regular thing! i am SO excited! well thats what happened today bye!!

my (HORRIBLE) day

well first off i woke up and my parents were both gone to work. so i stayed inside and watched TV in my PJs. when my dad got home he made me clean the car. then i took a shower then i had to sweep up the driveway. then i hung out with Andrew for a little bit. it was 6 pm by then so i went in and my parents went out to dinner and i got McDonalds. the day actually didnt turn out to be THAT bad. except it was without Hudson so thats what made it a horrible day. oh and since i didnt do a blog yesterday here is the details of it. first i did school (only 2 subjects YAY!) then i called Andrew over and me and him made a real life version of paper toss. you know how when you did a bad busniess idea or somthing and you roll it up in a ball and throw it in the trashcan? well thats what me and andrew made but even better! and it had different levels to it Easy, Medium, Hard and expert. i got it to medium and Andrew made it to hard. then after that we dicided to go to Ninas ( a little store thats just a couple blocks away from my neighborhood) i bought a bag of chips and Sunkist. thats when Hudson noticed us :DDDDDDD we hung out with him untill his mom called him to come and help her with somthing. then after he left it was just me,andrew, Tyvannah, and Conner. then Andrew had to leave to some resturaunt called Frog and Turtle. then at about 7 pm i went out to Dinner with my parents. and as i was leaving i saw Tyvannah and Conner hanging out with Hudson..... :( but going to dinner was fun. we went to on the border then we went to a comic book place and my mom bought me one. it was SuperGirl. but when we got home. Conner,Tyvannah and Hudson had all gone in. and today hudson is gone to his dads ( as usual) but i guess its a good thing. his parents ARE divorced so i SHOULD show SOME sympathy right? okay so thats all that happened today AND yesterday. see you tomorow. BYE!!



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my day with Amy

if you dont know Amy look on my past blogs. well today with Amy when she came over she got changed into jeans then we both did our make up then (this was ALL in my bathroom) she did french twist pig tails. i looked SO cute i swear to god! okay it looked SO good on me but it took so LONG to do though! and i also hung out with hudson today :0 he looked SO cute too. :) you know the whole reason i let Amy do my hair is so i could look cute for hudson...... that is SO embarrasing to say on a blog but its the truth isnt it? i mean come on! i just wanted to impress him (i dont know if it worked though) and Amy knew that i liked him but when she asked today i said no. but only because i panicked. i think i should have told her the truth....... i think me and Hudsons relationship is the same as DJ and Amys...... that means they LOOK like they're dating but they both have girlfriend/boyfriends already thats what i learned today i mean what kind of guy like Hudson like me? as in more than a friend? i mean COME ON! it is absouloutely IMPOSSIBLE. :( im sad now. ugh! this is SO hard to go through! *sighs* well he DOES already have a girlfriend anyway. he probably likes HER more than me........ *cries a whole river* it will probably NEVER happen. well thats what happend today. well bye!

my almost perfect day :)

well today i thought was gonna be as boring as heck but it turned out to be almost perfect (it was without hudson so it wasnt perfect :D) so i got my tiger beat mag and then DJ, my dad and i all went to daddys music store,walmart,target and chillis then we all went home and i hung out with conner and tyvanah (no hudson :( ) we only hung out at my house ( DJ taught them skate boarding conner was really bad at it!) for like 20-30 minutes then me and DJ went inside so here i am now writing this being bored now :) well thats all that happened today so see yall later!!!


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one week left and the bad weather lately

a week from today (sunday :D) hudson is getting back from massachusets that he went to with his dad to go fishing hes been gone since thursday and i am soooo bored i cannot WAIT till he gets back! but lately all its been is rain, rain, rain! ( i hope hudson doesnt get soaked in his tent at camp!) tomorow, thursday or friday me and my family are going to aquaboggin though!! it is going to be soooo much funnnnn!!!! well thats all so far well bye bye!!